Post by ivette on May 20, 2009 11:32:19 GMT -5
Hi, I'm Ivette, I'm new to on line support groups. I don't know what to do anymore, I feel like I'm loosing my mind and dragging my husband down with me. The hospital I use to go to sucks, they are no help at all. I'm looking for women who know what I'm going through.
Here's a little about me: Please excuse me if I jump around. I'm 33 years old, I was diagnosed with PCOS when trying to get pregnant with my son 10 years ago. I was told that without help I would not get pregnant, my son is my miracle baby, not only because he was conceived without drugs but at 19 weeks during his ultrasound I had an emergency cerclage put in and was on bed rest, incline position, monitored everyday in the hospital until my 31+ days. I had a small hole and infection was definite. I always imagined being pregnant fun and well lets just say it was hard both physically and mentally. I cry when I look at my son, and wish I could smack the Dr's who told me he would not make it. Well 7 years later again we try, 2 miscarriages and finally Dr's offered me drugs, but without them we got pregnant. Of course we knew what was ahead of us and every 2 weeks we went in to check my cervix and everything was fine. We discussed cerclages and were ready when the Dr's were. Angelita, died June 30th. My cervix opened and my mucus plug came out and my water broke. For 6 months I came to know this little person only to have her die slowly in me. Even the Army did no prepare me this kind of pain and hurt. Next month I celebrate my little girls 1 year anniversary and it seems like yesterday. I'm getting older and my husband and really want to try again but I'm so scared. I know my husband means well but he just doesn't know my mixed emotions. Anyone been so discouraged and still had another baby. If you have any thoughts or care to share please respond... I would like to hear about others stories in stead of dwelling on mine. You can email me if you prefer to talk in private.
Thank you in advance for listening.
Ivette
Here's a little about me: Please excuse me if I jump around. I'm 33 years old, I was diagnosed with PCOS when trying to get pregnant with my son 10 years ago. I was told that without help I would not get pregnant, my son is my miracle baby, not only because he was conceived without drugs but at 19 weeks during his ultrasound I had an emergency cerclage put in and was on bed rest, incline position, monitored everyday in the hospital until my 31+ days. I had a small hole and infection was definite. I always imagined being pregnant fun and well lets just say it was hard both physically and mentally. I cry when I look at my son, and wish I could smack the Dr's who told me he would not make it. Well 7 years later again we try, 2 miscarriages and finally Dr's offered me drugs, but without them we got pregnant. Of course we knew what was ahead of us and every 2 weeks we went in to check my cervix and everything was fine. We discussed cerclages and were ready when the Dr's were. Angelita, died June 30th. My cervix opened and my mucus plug came out and my water broke. For 6 months I came to know this little person only to have her die slowly in me. Even the Army did no prepare me this kind of pain and hurt. Next month I celebrate my little girls 1 year anniversary and it seems like yesterday. I'm getting older and my husband and really want to try again but I'm so scared. I know my husband means well but he just doesn't know my mixed emotions. Anyone been so discouraged and still had another baby. If you have any thoughts or care to share please respond... I would like to hear about others stories in stead of dwelling on mine. You can email me if you prefer to talk in private.
Thank you in advance for listening.
Ivette